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Second Shift

By Anonymous

It's 8:45. I'm at home, but on my firm laptop working on a Series A Preferred Stock Purchase Agreement. The big deal that had me working late last monday is still big string of snafus (at the fault of the other side, their client, and the general suckiness of the economy) but I have hope that someday it will be over and I can get rid of the thousands of pieces of paper lining the walls of my office in neat little stacks (the stacks aren't actually organized, they just look much better than the precarious piles that used to be in on top of my desk). Tonight at about 4:30 I got an email regarding the deal I drafted the Series A financing documents for a few weeks ago- apparently the partner needs this SPA tomorrow morning and because I am so intimately familiar with the term sheet, I get the honor of drafting it! Hooray. I tried to press on at the office but quickly decided I needed a change of scenery- preferably one that included a Landon, a glass of merlot, and glasses instead of contacts (ooh, and sweat pants instead of a skirt and button-down. and JP.).

I don't mean to complain. With every headline and story I'm more thankful for my job and the paycheck, steady deal flow, and security that all come with it. I'm just tired. Very, very tired. My in-laws left today. The visit went well but I spent at least 5 hours a day cleaning up after them and keeping my house in order and after 7 days of that (and doing everything for a Thanksgiving dinner for 10) I'm exhausted. Landon is teething and up every few hours at night. JP has a final exam every night next week from 5-8 so he's studying like crazy (and I'm dreading next week's quasi-single parenting as an attorney with two big deals about to close). All I want to do is go to sleep, preferably while being cuddled by a JP who is freed from the tension that consumes him when his parents are present. I do not want to work on this 56-page agreement.

But work I shall. If I had time I'd probably write about my deep, scary thought this morning that maybe this isn't what I want to do with my life. Not that I'm unhappy, I'm actually enjoying myself much of the time, but I wonder if I want to do this forever. Do I want to move up in this job? I like being handed the discreet assignments and have little interest in running the deal myself. But that could just be the exhaustion and lack of any practical corporate legal knowledge talking. Who knows. I have too much debt and too much time invested in this path to stray from it right now, but I'm curious about where I'll be in twenty years. If the last several years are any indication, it'll be nowhere I have planned. And that's fine, almost comforting actually, because right now all I have planned is getting this stock purchase agreement finished before my glass of wine.

Full post as published by Lag Liv on December 02, 2008 (boomark / email).